June 8th 1964… by Robert M. Katzman
© August 22, 2014
Fifty years ago
This happened:
At five, six, seven years old
Curses and slaps
In the middle of the night
Eight, nine, ten years old
Beatings without end
And no reason
Eleven, twelve, thirteen years old
Trapped in closets,
Whipped with leather belts
Metal belt buckles
Fourteen: June 8, 1964
My long glass fish tank shattered
Water and dead fish everywhere
Bookshelves toppled
My face was smashed with fists
But I couldn’t hit her back
I escaped the monster
Screaming into the black night
Cold rain pouring down
In a thin T-shirt and jeans
I had a dime and made a call
I waited on some steps
Dad came to get me at 2:30 AM
Back to his one-room apartment
A pull-down-from-the-wall bed
A single hanger in a closet
Two TV dinners waiting
Come morning
I flattened one aluminum TV tray
Banging on it with the heel of my shoe
Twisted the other one tightly into a handle
Wrapped a rag around it
Attached the two together with four big safety pins
Fried six eggs for both of us
On a dented four-burner gas stove
I understood my situation:
Didn’t want to be safe but also hungry
Combed my long dark hair
Washed my face
Smoothed out my now dry
T-shirt and jeans
Then went out on the street
Looking for work
48th Street, 49th Street, 50th Street
Kid, we don’t need nobody
51st Street, 52nd Street, 53rd Street
No! No! No!
Hey, why ain’t you in school, punk?
54th Street, 55th Street
Hyde Park seemed to have
A million streets
Stretched out ahead of me
I would not quit
I would not get discouraged
This endless rejection was nothing
Nothing
Compared to what I left behind me
I had to eat
I would find a job
After one hundred stores
There, in a dusty grocery window:
Clerk Needed
I’m selling fruit for Greeks
Three days a week
Got me another job immediately
Job insurance and food
Washing dishes at an Irish diner
Sweeping up and keeping lost change
Ate three meals in six hours
Learned quickly the world is divided
Black, White, Catholic, Jew
Greek, Italian, Irish, Polish
Everybody watching everybody else
A lesson to remember at fourteen
How to get along with people who are not you
Self-employed at fifteen
Big move up
Working in the dark
Working in the cold
Working in the rain
Working in the snow
Selling newspapers keeping two cents per
Nasty paper-truck drivers cursing me
When they see the six-pointed star
Hanging on a thin chain
Circling my neck
I learn fast that
No matter where I go
There are insane people everywhere
My Dad never caught a break
Depression to War
Married a dangerous woman
More than he could handle
Job to job to job
Never dreamed five years later
That his freezing kid sitting on that step
Would set him up for life
In a place of his own
A kosher delicatessen
Paid for with my
Eight…hundred…fifty…thousand
Saved newspaper stand pennies
Little copper bastards can sure add up
The man came and got me
No one else for me to call
A debt unpaid
He never thought so
But I did
He gave me the chance
To grow into a man
And meet the world
Face to face
He died in my arms
Thirty years later
Father, brother, teacher, friend
All of that
To me then, to me now
Every day
Is Father’s Day
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PO Box 44287
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